27th

Today is 27th of April... I jus realize time pass so fast..
it's already a month... since the 1st chat..
A short message to be wrote here...
I miss lil baby... hope u all is well..

I still can't forget the greatest memory of this.. its remind me when i saw the starry night 2days ago...
Do u still rmbr this? All the best for u..

4061673191215 miles distance away...from LGDM..small.b

Full with quotation msg

yeah..time again...i'm nt actually emo when i typing this blog post..jus suddenly feel like need to spread sumthin out here...coz now i'm thinking it in a positive way
recently..i saw a lot of nice quotation in Facebook...Jus the msg interpret my heart feelings.
will share some of them here..coz i think really suit my mood lately n status.

1st " sometimes u just need to distance urself from ppl, if they care, they will notice. If don't u would know where u stand" this msg told me the truth of reviewing to the ppl who i care..
but unfortunately i noe where i stand now... i really wan to care but i think mayb we din experience things much together...sumtime...i keep my distance...but it disappointing me again n again...until now i alrdy din expect anything...should i give up or? i duno whether the person that i care .. care me or nt... but from my sixth sense...i think the answer would be NO..coz i didn't saw that notice..

2nd " Sometimes, the person who tries to keep evryone happy is always the most lonely person "
Ya ... focus on that..i try to make the person who i care happy...no matter how n while i chat..
i try myself to make them happy...but infact i'm so lonely.. i jus duno y...mayb nt contact evryday is nt count as the ppl they dont care about u..but indeed..i jus feel so lonely whenever the person dont find me..

3rd " Best way that to not get ur heart broken, is pretend that u don have one"
yeah...tats true..i'm doing like this now...but i think i'm nt pretending anymore...no hope dy...then no need to watch back again...the feelings is there...jus need time...

The bad of mine is sumtime alrdy noe that it could nt be possible but still put my step in...
always hope that i should have a chance. n always hope that even 1% payback to me for wat i pay for..

that's what i need to spread it out only...i noe i;m nt actually right of what i'm guessing...
I'm alrdy ok with the situation now..nt emo...but try to find sumthin else n enjoying my life...
The person who i care...i will keep caring at the far place...although we r in diff place, doin diff things...
mayb u dont nid me...but in my heart...u alrdy have a place..no matter how ..i still thinking u in my daily life.. i'm still missing u..

Time at hometown

回了家乡的这几天。。

想好好的放松自己。。

带着累得心情回家。。

回到老家的第一天。。就去看戏了

battleship...真的很好看。。

场面非常的精彩。。。值得一看

然后就在家休息了一天。。

星期日又去了电脑展。。

逛了好久。。发觉也好像没什么东西可以买。。

打算想回家的时候。。

Razer 的比赛吸引了我。。

但我万万想不到的是。。突然Emcee 叫出了六个女大使。。还现场跳了段热舞。。

可以说都蛮不错看的。。也是其中一个亮点

手机拍的照片。。素质不是很好

当她们在卖力的工作当时。。

我发觉其中有个女孩。。跟别的不一样。。

发现到她们休息的时候。。她站在那边。。

也许只是我多心还是自己的错觉。。我发现她。。眼神流露出一中伤感。。

而且当天我的心情是还蛮沉的。。站在那边其实是在观赏美女们的表演。。

但是刚好发现她眼神流露出一中悲伤的感觉。。

我觉得可能是错觉吧？？

凑巧的是当时另一边的不远处正在播放着。。Bigbang 的 Blue 。。

所以我就开始觉得大家当时是否都处于在一个悲伤的世界当中呢？

虽然是卖力的工作中。。

这张。。她非常的敬业。。对着当时拍照的我笑了笑 。。

她是Yannie wong..freelance 模特儿

这张。。她的眼神告诉了我。。

Are you singing your blue?

累了

最近真的好累。。以为能够好好的休息在完成了公关的发表会这个assignment 之后。。
不过。。发生了一些事。。无论是心灵上。。或心理上都好累，好累。。。
生病了几天。感觉身体很沉重。。
一直不断的淋雨。。不断的流汗。。已经达到了一种极限。
在生病的时候。。骑了很远的脚车路程。。还打了羽球。。很累

最近呢。。 看了很多人生的名言。。歪理。虽然是歪理，但歪得很有道理。。

无可否认。。我在心灵上感觉很累。。是因为我输得很彻底。。
所以说有时在错的时间。。遇到的人。。如果你给了你的心。。老实说。。真的蛮伤的。。
已经不止一次了。。之前我已经经历过了。。都是同样的一个“错的时间”。。
我在爱情这条路上。。真的。。伤痕磊磊。。每当我决定要把我的心。。奉上的话。。换来的都是拒绝。
很多人多说。。我看起来很花。。认识很多异性。。觉得是美女的。。我就搭讪。。认识什么之类的。。可是有谁能够了解。。当我把心奉上了给某位的时候。。我都会把所有的心思都放在她的身上。。我会把她当成我的公主般爱戴。。
可惜的是。。都是失败了。。
失败的是。。我总是在错的时间。。

最近我也是那样。。失败了。。不过和以前的不太一样
这次是。。她完全没一点的感觉。。也许是认识的时间还短吧。。大家还没太了解对方。。
可是对于我来说。。当开始的时候。。已经没感觉的话。。那真的没希望了。。
我真的输得很彻底。。幸运的是时间还短。。
来了金宝都快一年了。。看过的人很多。。喜欢的人也多。。
但她是第一个让我把我的心。。拿了出来。。
虽然失败了。。我不是那么的伤心。。因为我已经没感觉去想了。。我不知道。。也许这就是我的心已经到了灰色地带的地步。。可是在我的心里。。又多了一个难以抹去的记忆。。
觉得他身边关心她的人。。喜欢她的人都很多。。少了我一个的话。。也许是没什么的。。
我在她心中占过的位置可能连一巴仙也没有吧？。。谢了。。
我不介意做什么。。只觉得她。。开心就好了。。

明天我回家乡了。。只想好好的休息

12：24 凌晨 10/04/2011
一切都结束了。。不想再去做无谓的挣扎。。不可能的就是不可能。。我再也不想去想了。。。
我累了。。

Ermm..

luckily i din take any action...i put myself a date means a period ...  a date to do research...a date to comm more.. i dun wan myself to be like the things i do before...
This quotation is jus nice..." don't expect anything, the more u expect, the more u get hurt"
A right decision it takes time to be settle.. but a wrong decision... u can jus decided it within a few sec...
Through many things i have been experienced n learned...i should be grow up by now..
LGDM

That weird

I think i probably falls again ... i can't describe whether it is true or nt..