Past is Past

I have done wrong,
I have been hurt so deeply,
But still I'm wrong...

What is past has past..
Fight from the now..
No matter how hard it is..

最靠近的陌生人 = 遥远的距离

最靠近的陌生人， 今天，令我感受到 一份 很遥远的距离。。
在之前，感觉还好。。大家都不认识， 但看到对方会笑一笑。。
认识了后，反而更遥远了。。
今天大家擦肩而过， 竟然没有感觉到对方的存在， 后来才发觉，原来就在附近。。
心中 有一种感觉。。遥远。。


但，
我却和 另外两个陌生人 ， 更靠近了。。。

还有一个就是，
 男生= 主动
虽然我主动并不是很多， 可是我很累。。因为失败率很高。。
倒希望有一天被动是有点成果的， 不至于那么的伤痕磊磊。。

我爱摄影。。。摄影是我的人生

Photo represent my life lately

I love photo shooting, i love to capture the every beautiful moment on the cloud..
That's what i do recently, i didn't own a DSLR, jus capture it by my phone and my DC...
Quality still ok...

The firework by Share n Inspire member's at somewhere in Kampar... it brings a spark concern in a quiet small town... luckily i capture few of it... although my camera capture quality is still ok only..


Sometime our life is jus like the firework, u might be the flamboyance over the night sky.. but u also might be as dark as normal night time when the firework is over, even within a sec or min


This is one of the photo i take when the sunset time in Kampar..
Actually Kampar evening , the scenery is jus so nice...
i can even see the bird flying over there..... jus like paradise, the spark of the sun is cover by some cloud...
It became a nice viewing point...


An evening view at Kampar.. it seems like a Ship is jus passing by at the sky over there.. Imagine it..


Another evening scenery when i come back from the campus... i like it because it represent the wonderful evening colour...




Recently...my life is jus fill all with those picture, but sometime i also review back all the photo that store inside my laptop....
some memory about the previous event, trip, and also other thing are coming back..

Feel like have some word to say to someone here....
 lil b...how are u lately? It's been a long time we didn't contact each other....
Have a nice and joyful memory with him...:)....i'm glad to know that...but i also wish that u can tell this good news to me by urself too...

Share n Inspire part 2

Well... its been a long time i didn't update here.. Today is 4th of May.. is a day where my PR senior last paper in their final exam.. all the best from Moo here..haha

Although i din know them for a long time.. however they are the person who i know in the 1st event i join..some of them i even get closer as friends

probably will miss them after they graduated.. ..

Now i would like to share some pictures...so call as "The Moments"

The photo from arr bear and Christy DSLR from the second event name 'Challenge fiesta'

Lets begin :)

now here's the place ... Grand Kampar Sports complex.. LOL
Challenge Fiesta 25/3/2012
i was lucky that i can take some of the photo by using their camera...

1st Special credits to Christy Yee who gave me all of this photo...a cute senior..hahaa

she was eating the hot-dogs for the food challenge contest

2nd ...Arr Bear....the photographer in the event...haha..he always have a nice smile

Challenge Fiesta is mainly about the challenge of Futsal and also basketball
Here's the contestant ...looks funny..

The basketball contest ...i be one of the time referee almost at the last part of the basketball competition

The very 1st photo during the event ..Choloee, Elise, Yit ying さん, Jean..

Here's some of the photo i take by using their DSLR ...but not much .. coz having duty on the same time..

Ken...haha...very serious facial expression when i taking this picture..haha

The 2 emcee there...By using Chinese and English to represent the speech

Edwin...the mascot of the day... this is his spinning ball skills...haha

The 2 different model of the day...Right and left... i like it so much ...

Amy to the Lim..one of the helper of the event... 1st i like this because she didn't look at me when i capture this. Its the natural moment while in the middle of the event.. The girl who looking at the 'Right' side...perhaps she was looking for the winner of the lucky draw?

Jean to the Low... the youngest member of the committee in this event... i like this photo too because she also did not look at me..another natural moment... The girl who looking at the 'Left' side... perhaps she was waiting the time to rest? or pretending emo...

The other photo that i found interesting too...By a few people who using the DSLR..

1st theme : Funny...

Haha...Hong Wei..the guys who looks so cute...

 

Challenge me?? two hotdogs for u .... hehe

The epic moment !!... Nice capture by the photographer..

Nice facial expression !

The most shocking moment...OMGG..

Jason...Heavy machine hotdogs....nice capture tooo

 Miss Poicia.... I own the world....the curry balls...haha

2nd theme : friends

To Christy and Elise... haha...nic to meet ya..all the best for yea

To Choloee and Jean... all the best too...:)

To Amanda and Catherine ... all the best 3...haha

To Wland and Miss Poicia... all the best 4...lol

To Edwin and Guo kang.. all the best 5...haha

To Jesse, Yit ying, Jing xin.. all the best 6...haha

to all ... all the best 7....7 people here...lol

3rd theme : Family and couple.

To Denise.. all the best too...its a sweet photo

Pais and Spy...and little cute xiao xuan xuan... ^^

Sweet couple...hahaa

Little message..here..

Miss Choloee...hahaa...hotdogs again??

little message to Choloee..." thanks for the books, and also nice to have a talk with you yesterday evening,dak han yumcha arr.. gaga Choloee..LOL"

To Jean... haha .... Niu niu...that's what them call you? 

Good luck ... Remember to be portrait model in the future? same age chingu..

To Pais.. Very tall de jie jie...haha... Pa..is...the awkward moment when i call your name wrongly..

The Kamparian here...when messaging and face to face is different...;p... good luck to you too...

The superman on the process

To Jia wei.. u r the most yeng person when taking photo...haha...Let's 'lavish' one day? hahaa

Good luck for you too

cute Christy ... haha...always take your camera and take photo when you are around.. still remember that time in Film festival...1st time borrow ur DSLR..haahaa..without you ...i cant keep those photo already...thanks..;)

Good luck for you too

To Elise ... 'Top' fans...

Still remember that day we doing backstage together in Film festival? haha... Stella chung ...lol... i'm still remember it, that day were so nice...

Good luck for you too

To Denise senior...you are the 1st person know and i talk to, since the 1st time briefing before the event....because you in charge..lol..

You look so strict and cool but sometimes funny too...

I'm following you for the duty in  the 2nd event..but i'm not doing well... perhaps u can forgive me ... 

good luck to you too...

Finally here is the photo of all ...

I'm appreciate that i'm joining share and inspire 2012...

i'm enjoying and have fun inside.... 

Time flies...it's already more than a month the time has pass...

I'll be missing the time during the both event...

and missing u all too...

perhaps we can meet during urs convocation? 

3 or 4 years in Kampar, finally have come to the end for yours too graduated.... Good luck in the future then :)

27th

Today is 27th of April... I jus realize time pass so fast..
it's already a month... since the 1st chat..
A short message to be wrote here...
I miss lil baby... hope u all is well..

I still can't forget the greatest memory of this.. its remind me when i saw the starry night 2days ago...
Do u still rmbr this? All the best for u..

4061673191215 miles distance away...from LGDM..small.b

Full with quotation msg

yeah..time again...i'm nt actually emo when i typing this blog post..jus suddenly feel like need to spread sumthin out here...coz now i'm thinking it in a positive way
recently..i saw a lot of nice quotation in Facebook...Jus the msg interpret my heart feelings.
will share some of them here..coz i think really suit my mood lately n status.

1st " sometimes u just need to distance urself from ppl, if they care, they will notice. If don't u would know where u stand" this msg told me the truth of reviewing to the ppl who i care..
but unfortunately i noe where i stand now... i really wan to care but i think mayb we din experience things much together...sumtime...i keep my distance...but it disappointing me again n again...until now i alrdy din expect anything...should i give up or? i duno whether the person that i care .. care me or nt... but from my sixth sense...i think the answer would be NO..coz i didn't saw that notice..

2nd " Sometimes, the person who tries to keep evryone happy is always the most lonely person "
Ya ... focus on that..i try to make the person who i care happy...no matter how n while i chat..
i try myself to make them happy...but infact i'm so lonely.. i jus duno y...mayb nt contact evryday is nt count as the ppl they dont care about u..but indeed..i jus feel so lonely whenever the person dont find me..

3rd " Best way that to not get ur heart broken, is pretend that u don have one"
yeah...tats true..i'm doing like this now...but i think i'm nt pretending anymore...no hope dy...then no need to watch back again...the feelings is there...jus need time...

The bad of mine is sumtime alrdy noe that it could nt be possible but still put my step in...
always hope that i should have a chance. n always hope that even 1% payback to me for wat i pay for..

that's what i need to spread it out only...i noe i;m nt actually right of what i'm guessing...
I'm alrdy ok with the situation now..nt emo...but try to find sumthin else n enjoying my life...
The person who i care...i will keep caring at the far place...although we r in diff place, doin diff things...
mayb u dont nid me...but in my heart...u alrdy have a place..no matter how ..i still thinking u in my daily life.. i'm still missing u..

Time at hometown

回了家乡的这几天。。

想好好的放松自己。。

带着累得心情回家。。

回到老家的第一天。。就去看戏了

battleship...真的很好看。。

场面非常的精彩。。。值得一看

然后就在家休息了一天。。

星期日又去了电脑展。。

逛了好久。。发觉也好像没什么东西可以买。。

打算想回家的时候。。

Razer 的比赛吸引了我。。

但我万万想不到的是。。突然Emcee 叫出了六个女大使。。还现场跳了段热舞。。

可以说都蛮不错看的。。也是其中一个亮点

手机拍的照片。。素质不是很好

当她们在卖力的工作当时。。

我发觉其中有个女孩。。跟别的不一样。。

发现到她们休息的时候。。她站在那边。。

也许只是我多心还是自己的错觉。。我发现她。。眼神流露出一中伤感。。

而且当天我的心情是还蛮沉的。。站在那边其实是在观赏美女们的表演。。

但是刚好发现她眼神流露出一中悲伤的感觉。。

我觉得可能是错觉吧？？

凑巧的是当时另一边的不远处正在播放着。。Bigbang 的 Blue 。。

所以我就开始觉得大家当时是否都处于在一个悲伤的世界当中呢？

虽然是卖力的工作中。。

这张。。她非常的敬业。。对着当时拍照的我笑了笑 。。

她是Yannie wong..freelance 模特儿

这张。。她的眼神告诉了我。。

Are you singing your blue?

累了

最近真的好累。。以为能够好好的休息在完成了公关的发表会这个assignment 之后。。
不过。。发生了一些事。。无论是心灵上。。或心理上都好累，好累。。。
生病了几天。感觉身体很沉重。。
一直不断的淋雨。。不断的流汗。。已经达到了一种极限。
在生病的时候。。骑了很远的脚车路程。。还打了羽球。。很累

最近呢。。 看了很多人生的名言。。歪理。虽然是歪理，但歪得很有道理。。

无可否认。。我在心灵上感觉很累。。是因为我输得很彻底。。
所以说有时在错的时间。。遇到的人。。如果你给了你的心。。老实说。。真的蛮伤的。。
已经不止一次了。。之前我已经经历过了。。都是同样的一个“错的时间”。。
我在爱情这条路上。。真的。。伤痕磊磊。。每当我决定要把我的心。。奉上的话。。换来的都是拒绝。
很多人多说。。我看起来很花。。认识很多异性。。觉得是美女的。。我就搭讪。。认识什么之类的。。可是有谁能够了解。。当我把心奉上了给某位的时候。。我都会把所有的心思都放在她的身上。。我会把她当成我的公主般爱戴。。
可惜的是。。都是失败了。。
失败的是。。我总是在错的时间。。

最近我也是那样。。失败了。。不过和以前的不太一样
这次是。。她完全没一点的感觉。。也许是认识的时间还短吧。。大家还没太了解对方。。
可是对于我来说。。当开始的时候。。已经没感觉的话。。那真的没希望了。。
我真的输得很彻底。。幸运的是时间还短。。
来了金宝都快一年了。。看过的人很多。。喜欢的人也多。。
但她是第一个让我把我的心。。拿了出来。。
虽然失败了。。我不是那么的伤心。。因为我已经没感觉去想了。。我不知道。。也许这就是我的心已经到了灰色地带的地步。。可是在我的心里。。又多了一个难以抹去的记忆。。
觉得他身边关心她的人。。喜欢她的人都很多。。少了我一个的话。。也许是没什么的。。
我在她心中占过的位置可能连一巴仙也没有吧？。。谢了。。
我不介意做什么。。只觉得她。。开心就好了。。

明天我回家乡了。。只想好好的休息

12：24 凌晨 10/04/2011
一切都结束了。。不想再去做无谓的挣扎。。不可能的就是不可能。。我再也不想去想了。。。
我累了。。

Ermm..

luckily i din take any action...i put myself a date means a period ...  a date to do research...a date to comm more.. i dun wan myself to be like the things i do before...
This quotation is jus nice..." don't expect anything, the more u expect, the more u get hurt"
A right decision it takes time to be settle.. but a wrong decision... u can jus decided it within a few sec...
Through many things i have been experienced n learned...i should be grow up by now..
LGDM

That weird

I think i probably falls again ... i can't describe whether it is true or nt..

Joyful moment of Share and Inspire 2012

March will be ended soon... If u ask me what i have do in this month.. i would definitely to tell u... besides of the assignments we rushing everyday..the 1st ever event i be the helper in UTAR...

Share & Inspire 2012 .. A senior PR campaign

yes...this is it..

Before i go

This is the 1st time I'm to be helper in UTAR...

With nobody accompany...because all my friends were busy with their soft-skill workshop and other activities...

I take out my 1st step and register my name in the helper list

Flash Mob by them (a week before the event)

hahaa....i was eating there...

11/3/2012 ( Film festival)

With all the senior that i didn't meet before in UTAR, i was blank and don't know what to do..so i jus do whenever i can help them..

I was duty to help the committee at the backstage...before the event start at 2.30pm..there was the rehearsal in the process...so i jus chilling around at heritage hall..

But 3 things grab my attention in a moment ..3 DSLR..was bringing by a committee and a photographer...i jus step into my second step to ask them...can i try it?

Then i begin my photo shooting :D

The 1st photo i take ..

so now lets have a look by the other picture taken by other photographer of the Film festival..

Josheen Ma...my favourite blogger..she suppose to be the special guest of the event ...but she jus appear for a short period due to her works in KL...

The camera owner..the mascot of the event..Christy Yee..with Josheen Ma...;D

Special guest of the day... Stella chong

The helper i know when the meeting before the event ...yi xian..LOL

Do you think she is pretty...??hehe

Cute mascot...Christy ...hehe

Stella chong was perform on the stage with her brand new album

I like this photo..i suppose to take a formal photo of them...but they jus show their funny facial expression xD..what stella chong will think if she look at this photo? hahaaa

Congrats. to the winner !!..and my friend Ronald was won the Grand prize..No.1 of the competition..;D

there he is..Ronald...the 1st prize worth RM 1000 !!

A short meeting of the S& I members... committee and helper ...after the event

Photos of me..

Me and Denise..^^...The Program Director of the Event...(PD)...

me with Yi xian ...my troll face..-- many ppl say she looks alike SNSD Yuri...how do u think??

Yeah..me with Josheen Ma...^^....i was the last person who grab the chance to take a photo with her in the hall...My favourite blogger jus stand besides me ^^...special thanks to Jean xiao wen..^^

Happy 10th anniversary to UTAR...A group photo ..

Thanks for the joyful moment...i'm glad to be helper...Gambateh for the senior who fighting for their last sem to graduated ^^...although i jus noe yours for not a longer period...but it is special to me to say that...i will miss u all...♥